CCM: Your first record spawned radio success, sales success and touring success. Last year, when you were thinking about creating this second record, was there fear involved? Because of how much your debut achieved?
JF: Yes. Crippling fear. Whenever I started writing for this new record, the first four months were actually filled with severe anxiety. I had never had a panic attack in my life, but I just started having panic attacks every week.
CCM: While you were on the road?
JF: Yeah, while I’m on the road, just freaking out in the back lounge of the bus and just not feeling like myself, too. I’m not that personality, so it was a really strange season. Why am I feeling this way? It really came down to the fact that when writing for the first record, there was no expectation of me—just write the best songs possible and pray people enjoy them and that the Lord will use them. The second record was like, No, you have to hold the weight of this, and you have to perform, and if you don’t, then everybody hates you. Somehow I had tricked my mind.
About seven months into writing [Future], I was sitting down with a co-writer, Paul Duncan. I had finished explaining to him my mindset at the time, and how I was just not myself. He quoted the backside of Ephesians 1:18, and said, “You have to remember that our future is found in the inheritance of God.” It crushed me because I realized all the things I had [forgotten] since our move from California to Nashville, of relying on Jesus to provide. He’s not just our financial provider, He’s not just our provider for food or water, He’s our provider for everything—even songs.
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